What I Meant Lyrics

These lyrics express a sense of frustration, miscommunication, and inner turmoil. The speaker feels misunderstood and is urging someone to listen more closely and comprehend their true intentions. They acknowledge a disconnect between their past actions and their present self, and they can no longer hide the truth or pretend. There’s a sense of confusion and feeling lost about the circumstances that have led them to their current state, with a reference to seasonal affective disorder contributing to their doubts and emotional struggles.

That’s not what i said
Please reel it in now
I can’t justify
That’s not what i meant
Please try to understand
I’m not myself again

These lines highlight a strong sense of frustration and a breakdown in communication. The speaker is emphasizing that their words have been misunderstood or misinterpreted. They are pleading for the listener to “reel it in,” to better understand their true intentions because they find it difficult to explain or justify themselves. The phrase “I’m not myself again” suggests a feeling of being disconnected from their usual self or struggling with their own identity due to the misunderstandings.

I’ve blurred my past again
I can’t even lie anymore
I’ve crosshatched with my past
I can’t even lie anymore

These lines reflect a sense of personal transformation and honesty. The speaker admits to having blurred or distorted their past, likely by concealing or fabricating aspects of it. However, they’ve now reached a point where they can no longer engage in deception (“I can’t even lie anymore”). The mention of “crosshatched with my past” suggests an intertwining of their current self with their true history, indicating a desire for authenticity and a break from the falsehoods they used to uphold. These lines convey a commitment to facing the truth and abandoning dishonesty.

That’s not what i said
Please reel it in now
I can’t justify
That’s not what i meant
Please try to understand
I’m not myself again

I’ve blurred my past again
I can’t even lie anymore
I’ve crosshatched with my past
I can’t even lie anymore

I’m not like this
I know how
But I’m clueless to everything
That led me here, brought me down
I know it, put away that mirror

I see the way
It comes around, around the year
Seasonal dejection
It’s causing me to doubt